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Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
8:46 pm
Leaving for NYC on Saturday. Comment.

I'm out.
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
10:37 pm
This is me
Feel free to ask as many questions as you want. Please do.

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Thursday, February 10th, 2005
10:47 pm
Re-Agenda for Tomorrow:
1) Wake up
2) Find out it's raining and that my dad is going to stay here all day
3) Wait for my dad to go home so we'll get breakfast
4) Do nothing (not on anything)

Son of a bitch...
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
8:25 pm
I'm so fucked, dude.
Monday, December 6th, 2004
9:36 pm
- I'm not afraid of commitment. I just want a level of commitment most kids in high school, including myself, aren't ready for. I want a family, and a family pet, and a house. Those sort of things. And those probably won't come about through some high school boyfriend-girlfriend thing. it's doubtful if it would even last a month, let a lone a lifetime. So what's the point? That's why being with each other is so much better than being "together". How can you say that you're "together" if you're not actually physically with each other? So what does this "together" even mean? A word that represents some intangible "relationship"? I mean, I don't even want a family right NOW. But all teenagers, especially in these teen years, need some sort of fulfillment. So what's to bridge the gap? Hopefully not a boyfriend-girlfriend "relationship". That is a total waste of time and energy that could be used in better ways than worrying if you're being faithful or not. Can't I just have faith that we can be together now and maybe not tomorrow, and be okay with that? Sure, some sort of relationship, but not something false. Not something showy that only exists, because you're both too afraid of losing each other, even though you're still in high school. And if any of this makes sense, just imagine what it would be like to invest all of your energy and emotion into each other rather than the "relationship".

"It's better to burn out
than to fade away"

Truly true for now,
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
6:53 pm
Update: Narcolepsy not Insomnia
Yeah, I made a whole new entry just for that. What are you going to do about it?
Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
11:47 am
I may get on independent study
...on the grounds of Insomnia. Sweet!

And then if my mom moves to New York I can get her car and then... I can rule the world! Or at least this crappy little town!
Monday, November 15th, 2004
8:52 pm
I'm going to do this until someone comments.
Oh comely
I will be with you when you lose your breath
Chasing the only meaningful memory you thought you had left
With some pretty bright and bubbly terrible scene
That was doing her thing on your chest
But oh comely
It isn't as pretty as you'd like to guess
Oh comely
All of your friends are letting you blow
Bristling and ugly
Bursting with fruits falling out from the holes
Of some pretty bright and bubbly friend
You could need to say comforting things in your ear
But oh comely
There isn't such one friend that you could find here
Standing next to me
He's only my enemy
I'll crush him with everything I own

Your father made fetuses
With flesh licking ladies
While you and your mother
Were asleep in the trailer park
Thunderous sparks from the dark of the stadiums
The music and medicine you needed for comforting
So make all your fat fleshy fingers to moving
And pluck all your silly strings
And bend all your notes for me
Soft silly music is meaningful magical
The movements were beautiful
All in your ovaries
All of them milking with green fleshy flowers
While powerful pistons were sugary sweet machines
Smelling of semen all under the garden
Was all you were needing when you still believed in me

And I know they buried her body with others
Her sister and mother and 500 families
And will she remember me 50 years later
I wished I could save her in some sort of time machine
Know all your enemies
We know who are enemies are

Goldaline my dear
We will fold and freeze together
Far away from here
There is sun and spring and green forever
But now we move to feel
For ourselves inside some stranger's stomach
Place your body here
Let your skin begin to blend itself with mine
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
9:10 pm
I can't terrorize I see terror in your eyes
As we go up, we go down
I can't socialize I'll be institutionalized
As we go up, we go down

And see the truth, yeah, is just a lie, oh
And see the truth, yeah, is just a lie, oh

I speak in monotone: "Leave my fucking life alone"
As we go up we go down
Saturday, November 6th, 2004
11:35 am
When you were young you were the King of carrot flowers,
And how you built a tower tumbling through the trees,
In holy rattlesnakes that fell all round your feet.

And your Mum would stick a fork right into Daddy’s shoulder,
And Dad would throw the garbage all across the floor,
As we would lay and learn what each other’s bodies were for.

And this is the room one afternoon I knew I could love you,
And from above you how I sank into your soul,
Into that secret place where no-one dares to go.

And your mum would drink until she was no longer speaking,
And Dad would dream of all the different ways to die,
Each one a little more than he could dare to try…
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
9:07 pm
I'm going to run for president.
"Think, dammit!" is going to be my slogan.
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
3:08 pm
What does it take to get a drink in this place?
What does it take?

How long must I wait?
Monday, August 16th, 2004
12:24 am
Friday, July 23rd, 2004
8:52 pm
*points to Newport*
*makes grunting sounds*
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
3:17 am
I haven't felt a surge of pure hatred like that for a long time
That's quite depressing.

I'm sorry, Hayley.
Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
5:00 am
New picture.
Awesome, or awesome?

That's right, awesome.
Saturday, June 26th, 2004
5:16 pm
Am I fashionably early?
Fashionably fashionable.

...I'm fashionably awesome.
Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
5:24 pm
Thursday, May 6th, 2004
4:01 pm
Me commenting in your journal does not make you cool. That is all.
Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
11:53 pm
Here I am! Rock you like a hurricane!
Alright. Life is usual. California, it's hot. Paso Robles, it's small. My life, it's boring. And yet, I somehow make it through everyday. Failing through high school with flying colors. It's a good life.

You don't know it, but I think about both of you all the time. I mean, it's so amazing that I've met you.

Vancouver. Divorce. Mid-life crisis. Dads. Lindsey. Crush. California. Internet. Carrie. Amanda. "Would you like to meet the person with almost your name?" "Sure.".

In a nutshell. And now all of this. It's completely amazing to me. And I'll let you in on an unrelated secret...I used to say "u".

Secret, secret. I've got a secret. Domo, domo.

If I could sum up my life in one word: beautiful. And hopefully you guys will be along for the ride.

Shine on you crazy diamond.
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